Dreaming in Aqua

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I remember it was summer.  I think I was like 11 or 12.  I can see myself standing there in my green polka dotted swim suit, just trying to breathe while peering down into aqua colored water.  I didn’t know it then, but I was looking down at a dream that was floating in my favorite color, aqua blue.   It wasn’t water in an ocean, or water in a lake or pond.  It was aqua colored water in our small town community pool and I was standing on the “high dive.”  Now, if you grew up in the 60’s/70’s era, you know what I’m referring to…. the high diving board.  How high was it?  I don’t even know.  10-12 feet high?  All I know is when I looked up at it from the cement deck, it seemed as if it was towering over the neighborhood.  As I climbed up the ladder to the top, with every wrung grasped my heart beat faster and faster with….. you guessed it, fear.  You see, I wasn’t jumping, which I had done plenty of times before, but I had to dive.  Head first.  Into the deep end.  I was scared.  Shaking.

Now, I could do a really good front flip off the low board.  Even tried a back dive off the low.  Tried a 1 1/2 and made it, mostly… off the low.  Played the “jump or dive” game with my friends…. off the low.  But, I only jumped off the high.  The deal was I could not pass my advanced swimming class until I dove off the high.

It took awhile.  I’m sure my instructor was ready to give up on me as I stood there looking over the ledge of the board, but I had a goal.  I wanted to pass the class.  I wanted to be a lifeguard some day.  So, I had to dive, head first, into the deep end to get that last requirement checked off the list.

I must have looked pathetic.  My body would not relax.  I don’t even remember… did I close my eyes and just fall head-first forward?  I think that’s kinda what they told me to do.  At any rate, I dove.  I do remember that I felt all crumpled up when I dove.  So, form was out the window as I plummeted into the depths of aqua water.  It kinda hurt.  I remember that.  I don’t remember a huge celebration after I dove, but I do remember relief.  And, I still remember the fear.

One of my dreams lay in the depths of that aqua colored water.  It was a dream that took faith. At some point, I chose faith over fear.  I had aqua colored faith.

Faith over fear…. any day, right?  Yet, it can be a difficult choice.  Did I have faith that I would be okay diving off of that board?  I don’t know.  I just remember I had to do it, so I did.  There was too much too lose if I didn’t.

Our first reaction to situations is just that… an emotional reaction filled with fear.  I’m speaking firsthand here because I know it too well.  It’s easier to just remain in my comfort zone than reach out, branch out, speak out or venture out.  Out of what, you may wonder?  Out of my current comfort.

You see, fear is a thief literally stealing our dreams and keeping us locked up in our caged comfort.  Fear is the padlock on action and it is preventing us from moving forward toward our goals.  It’s robbing us of opportunity.  It’s raiding our happiness.  It doesn’t have to be that way.  There is a cure for fear… and it’s called faith.

Faith is the key to opening doors.  Faith is what unlocks your vision, your purpose, your dreams and your blessings.  Do you have faith?  It needs exercise.  It takes practice.  It requires action.  If you never use it, you definitely lose it.

Where we focus is powerful.  If I choose to look for bad stuff in a situation, then I’ll find something bad ‘cuz that’s all I’m focused on.  If I think about failing, I’ve probably just increased my chances of failure.  There’s plenty of negative out there to think on.  There’s excess and garbage.   Ain’t got time for that.  Life’s too short.  If I choose to look for the good, I’ll find it.  There’s always a rainbow after the storm!

My source for truth is the Bible.  When in doubt, that’s where I turn.  So, here’s what I read about focus from a Biblical passage:

Summing it all up, friends, I’d say you’ll do best by filling your minds and meditating on things true, noble, reputable, authentic, compelling, gracious—the best, not the worst; the beautiful, not the ugly; things to praise, not things to curse. Put into practice what you learned from me, what you heard and saw and realized. Do that, and God, who makes everything work together, will work you into his most excellent harmonies.”  Philippians 4:8-9 (MSG)

So, when there’s a presence of fear, I need to change my focus.  Because if I am focusing on everything negative in a situation, that’s mostly what I see.   Fill the mind with things that are good.  I can start with being grateful and counting my blessings.  Then, I can say “what if” and answer it with all the positives.  Counting to 10 and taking a deep breath may be in order as I surrender a situation to God believing that it will be handled in the best of hands.

As focus changes, one steps from fear to faith.  Sounds like a big step.  How do we get there?   There are plenty of examples of folks who took that step in The Bible, especially in Hebrews Chapter 11.  Here’s how it starts:  “The fundamental fact of existence is that this trust in God, this faith, is the firm foundation under everything that makes life worth living. It’s our handle on what we can’t see. The act of faith is what distinguished our ancestors, set them above the crowd.” (MSG)

I encourage you to read the entire chapter in Hebrews.  There are so many examples of these ordinary people back in the Bible days who stepped out of fear into faith and, as a result, changed history.  The stories are told for us, to encourage us in our faith-walk.

The Bible says, “Perfect love casts out fear.”  My son told me today that we must have faith through love.  That fear has no place.  It all starts with love.  So, love yourself.  Love your dreams.  Above all, love and trust God.

Just in case you’re wondering what color I’m dreaming in these days, I’m still stuck on aqua.  My dream is to look out at that aqua blue ocean daily, in my home where grandchildren play joyfully and sleep peacefully.

After Hebrews 11 comes Hebrews 12, which is about discipline and action.  This is where my focus lies:

“So don’t sit around on your hands! No more dragging your feet! Clear the path for long-distance runners so no one will trip and fall, so no one will step in a hole and sprain an ankle. Help each other out.  And run for it!”  Hebrews 12:12-13 (MSG)

I’m running now as I’m dreaming in aqua.

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4 Comments

  1. Hello Jolene, I saw your name on my cousins’ fb in Washington state, (one of her friends page). There’s too many people by the name Riley. I have relatives in California, surprised that your from California. and also a Christian, I am also a born-again Christian. My relatives in California were John, and James Riley (now deceased), but John had a son named John. and James has a son James, just wondered if maybe you were related to them? You can respond if you would like. Herman Riley—-Mt. Sterling, Ky.

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